This has been one of the biggest weeks in a long time. Big is the only way I can describe it I guess. I have had some really cool things happen...and had to do one of the hardest things I've ever done.
Let's start with the cool stuff :) I had this realization this week about how we as humans want to be believed in...need it really! I have struggled off and on in life with confidence. In certain situations I am confident and sure of myself. In others, I want to crawl in a hole. Have you ever noticied in a situation where you don't feel confident if someone BELIEVES in you it makes you suddenly able to do it? I know for myself, the words of someone who is instilling hope and confidence in me is HUGE...One example of someone who does that well in my life is our children's pastor. When I agreed to move to the 2's ministry the words she spoke about me to others instilled confidence in me. Not confidence in my own ability...but what the Lord could do through me if I was a willing vessel. I have had some really cool things happen in my heart through her and through this ministry.
I also had a divine appointment this week. That's another story that is still unfolding but the Lord clearly put this person in my path at the exact moment I needed it. I am still smiling that the Lord loves me so much He does these things...little things...but important to my growth and confidence.
The hard thing is too tender and private to share here but I will say the Lord works in ways we don't understand. He uses us in ways we would NEVER want to be used but I can see on this side of the week a little of why He wanted me to do what I had to do. I don't believe in coincidences...I do believe in honesty and truth...I do believe there is a battle going on around us that we are not always aware of but it is very real. I am confident that "his mercies are new every morning". I wish I could take away pain from those I love...even though I am unable...I know the ONE who is able!
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